又到聖誕

惠康裡播著聖誕歌曲，我"0痴"一聲笑了出來。
聽到聖誕歌我就開心到傻。
我承認我愛聖誕是到了有點變態的地步，呵。
一想到聖誕的那種氣氛那種溫度那種燈光顏色和音樂，
我就充滿力量地面對打後這兩個星期忙到無得訓的惡耗。

小小

回到家的時候看到有兩個小小的蛋糕放在桌上，
是昨晚跳跳虎焗的，留了兩個給我。
看到這兩個蛋糕仔就感動起來了...
不要笑我，我就是那麼容易被感動。

天亡我也

Disney"Christmas sing along" album  

天啊!我最愛既哩張Disney"Christmas Sing Along" 唱片唔見左呀搵左好多日都唔見呀!!究竟去左邊呀!
去 左 邊 呀?!
佢係唯一一張我每次聽都會好開心既唱片... 睇黎個天要亡我喇...響我最窮既時候先至唔見佢...唉...

My favourite "cha chen ten"

美都茶餐廳

小小的滿足

和一直關愛的朋友們見面，在那小小的店裡喝熱sake聊天，我就感到很欣慰。
我把那小小的滿足放進袋裡，希望今後能不斷增加。
過往因無蒲頭而錯過的美好日子，但願今後能夠追回，因我是那麼珍視這段關係。

我對著牆說：我傷心到要死了。

牆仍然沒有回應。

如這世界沒看見我一樣。

Breathe in the tar and nicotine,
breathe out the deepest sadness.
Nothing can help to release my pain except using tar and nicotine,
going deep to the heart,
stick it,
and take it away as breathing out.

God,
forgive me that i started my first tar plus nicotine....

Dedicated to P

I'm comin' 'round to open the blinds
You can't hide here any longer
My God you need to rinse those puffy eyes You can't last hereany longer
And yes they'll ask you where you've been
And you'll have to tell them again and again
And you probably don't want to hear tomorrow's another day
Well I promise you you'llsee the sun again
And you're asking me why pain's the only way to happiness
And I promise youyou'll see the sun again
Come on take my hand We're going for a walk
I know you can
You can wear anything as long as it's not black
Please don't mourn forever
She's not coming back
Do you remember telling me you found the sweetest thing of all
You said one day this was worth dying for So be thankful
you knew her at all
But it's no more
And you probably don't wantto hear tomorrow's another day
Well I promise you you'll see the sun again
And you're asking mewhy pain's the only way to happiness
And I promise you you'll see the sun again
And I promise you you'll see the sun again

[See The Sun] - Dido

給C:

看到妳的眼淚，我就心痛起來了。妳選擇今天才說出，我都理解我都明白，因此我感到自責。那種處於事情未到最壞地步但問題實在發生總會無奈總會害怕的感覺，我該知道，又怎會不知道?! 但我除了只懂看著妳著妳放心握著妳的手外我卻一句話也不懂說，妳能感到我想給妳的支持給妳的力量有多大嗎?

好苦呀 我 個 口 !

血管發炎。幸好不是: 還要再驗。不過情況也好不到那裡，醫生盡責到不得了， 要我再抽血，仲要五支，務求把心肝皮肺都驗得清清楚楚。

我想暈。

Keep住食藥再看情況。醫生話。那是一顆，其實是一粒，如米般大的藥丸，鮮橙色的。那麼小的一粒藥，其實不可怕，可怕的是那顆胃藥。一入口，那種極假的甜味混著重重的藥味令我反胃，仲要咬喎! 痴牙呀! 頂!
細個時，最怕食藥丸，當所有人都要求食藥丸覺得冇咁苦抵d時，我堅持主動要求要藥水，盡比，唔要藥丸唔該! 我唔識吞! 真的，我唔識吞唔敢吞怕佢痴住喉嚨。我寧願要枝橙色杰野都唔要藥丸，你可以想像到我有幾怕藥丸未?!

要好返呀...最少食足半年。好苦呀個口! 食完好耐都仲好苦呀 我 個 口 !